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Two roads diverged in a yellow Cassia fistula wood, and sorry I could not walk both and be one lonesome, long I stood and looked down one as far as I could to where it bent in the undregrowth; then took the other, as just as fair, and having perhaps the better decision, because it was grassy and wanted wear; thought as for that the passing there had worn them really about the same, and both that morning almostly sink in leaves no step had trodden black.

Demn, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way; I bewildered if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sign somewhere ages and ages hence: two roads diverged in a wood, and I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference anything I've done.

我做了愚蠢至極的行為，比去7-11買抓狂一族還愚蠢幾千萬倍

，但是不後悔

，因為我試著活在當下，也淋了一身濕。

我想如果我待在雨中十年八年的，這百分之玖拾玖點玖玖叁是他媽的行動或裝置藝術，剩下的零點零零零零柒則是無限的哀愁與心悸。我不會跟你吹噓嘴砲那些甚麼活不活在當下的人生意義大道理。當我淋雨在那裡，那那間沙茶魷魚羹店便產生了前所未有的新想法- 經過琳瑯滿鋪的各式樣飲食如靈堂前擺滿獻花、獻果、晌香與彩色遺照的貢桌，我約略領悟到阿嬤往生時，最終係要讓我明白:

「不要沉浸於死人哀悼的漩渦裡，因為還有更多活人值得你去珍惜。」。

最終，如果我還沒有被雨水泡爛腐朽，也許可以底被積水淹沒的城市裡，游泳。

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(請 給個晴天吧)
(雖然給了個要晴不晴的天，還算不錯)
(W 那天在非答錄機留言裡，其實想說的是:「如果有一天，或許三年後，或許十年，如果你開始想結婚，你一定要第一個告訴我。不要笑。我是說真的。」)

如果，人世間的溫暖可為筆墨描述，誰還願意賣弄淒慘落魄的冰冷屍塊故事。

許多年以後，當最後一個凋零的背影也漸漸黯淡了之後，那些曾用過的廁所、鋼琴、書桌、畫架、浴缸、甚至是親密同志愛人，誰為了清除遺留的心酸你的手指菸草氣味、頭髮與烙痕，以思念著你的醜惡麻痺自身神經，直至完全可以遺忘你曾經在這世上活過。

那或許是我永不可及的精神狀態。

(當哪天發癲似的租了某間小屋，在裡邊埋頭苦幹的為了私欲的稿酬而迎合那些自以為藝文類評審委員的審美文章觀念時，只有在寫出意念靈感是值得欣慰的當下，也許會想到祂憂鬱與怊愁的顏容。)

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hippo blu
蓝色河马
blauwe hippo
青い河馬
hippopotame bleu
파란 하마
blaues Flußpferd
藍色河馬
голубое hippo

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